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Friday, 03 October 2008

A bunch of things going threw my head

21 or so years ago give or take a few months, i was in my mommys tummy. Weird to think about, that I actually lived in there for 9 months. 9 months is what it took my to grow into the "baby" that so many people consider human and 20 years to grow into a woman.....and about 60 more years until I grow old and die, unless ofcourse it happens before then. And for what, to worship God? To help others? To learn to appreciate heaven because the earth sucks? To slowly kill the earth as we use up its resources with out thinking about the effects?
And then that brings me to friends...I know, it makes no sence, but it my head it brings me to friends. Do they really exist? Or are they some mythical creature that you think its real for a while but then you grow up and understand they are only imaginary, and when you understand that they fade away..."bye bye" but even though you are grown up and "mature" you some times still want to believe in Myths in Legends, so they come back until you quickly swing right back into reality.
And Speaking about reality, if we could use all our brain I wonder if our reality would change as we know it. And why dont we use all our brain...or why where we made with extra if only about 100 people in the whole world and its time have even come close to using all of it.
AND that brings me to society and its norms. STORY: I went to a club last night, and I was dancing with my friends, there was no one else on the dance floor but then a guy came up and started dancing with us, at first I was like cool, some one else is dancing, then he kept on looking at me, made me feel awkward but what ever right, but then he said "shake your ass more"...I wanted to say "WHY DONT YOU SHAKE YOUR FUCKING ASS MORE, JUST BECAUSE I AM A WOMEN DOES NOT MEAN I HAVE TO SHAKE MY FUCKING ASS FOR YOU YOU ASS HOLE, I AM NOT A PIECE OF MEAT FOR YOU TO LOOK AT, FUCK OFF" but what I really sad was, "How bout not" and he kept on pushing me and trying to make me dance more sexy i suppose, why does everything have to be sexy! You have to shave your legs to look sexy you have to put make up on to look sexy wear tight cloths that fit your body, turn the tv on and they are all skiny lovely beautiful sexy women, change the channel and you stumble on a music video, and every guy in the room gets a boner, why, less then half dressed women flonting there butts and boobs, rubbing up agianst things, selling there bodies and digrating women......grrr......and that brings me back to the club MAYBE i just came to dance, to dance how I wanted to dance, to be silly and goofy with my friends not to rub my ass up against you, maybe I dont want to be judged on my body maybe I want to be judged on what I saw the things i do, for me as a whole, for WHO i am not WHAT i look like

Wednesday, 20 August 2008

Grants, Guineas, Beaners, and JAPAN

On saturday morning I was getting ready for school making a payment plan online. Its a 561 dollar down payment that was needed, I didnt get my fasfa back yet but I figured that I would only have loans and I didnt want to use any of thouse. So I went ahead and did the down payment. Leaving me with like....zero dollars in my bank account. Then a few hours after that I checked the mail and there was my fasfa. And I got grant to cover all my school for this semester, so I tryed to cancel my payment plan but they take my down payment right away. SO...Im really happy that I have a grant, but I'm going to be SO pissed if I don't get that 561 dollars back.

I cut my guinea pigs nails today. Well I dont know if he is really mine but, my mom bought him then bought a dog my sisters and mom dont pay much attention to it, my mom asked if I wanted him but I dont really have the space or time for him, but I do take care of him...feed him...clean his cage...and cut his nails, so he is pretty much mine. He doesn't really have an offical name but I call him "little one" Mr. Guiny" or "Guiny". He is cute
I love working at Beaners, but sometimes I just don't feel like I fit in, everyone there obviously does pot minus me. One of my coworkers was like you smoke dont you, and I was like.....no I never have, and she was like...what ever your lying, i bet you have. But i haven't.
I keep having dreams about japan...if I get to go there before I die I would be so happy. My old student Teacher from highschool, Aja, came to beaners and got some coffee and for a tip she gave me japanese money!!!!!!! : ) I thought that was pretty much the coolest tip ever. Ok well I hope some reades this and has something to say back. if not, oh well, its nice to update the xanga every once in a while anywho.
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Tuesday, 08 July 2008

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Its been two years!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow
Its been two years since I last wrote in this xanga thing. A lot has changed...a lot.
As of now I am almost done with my Associates in Arts at LSC, and after that Im thinking about going to UMD to do Speach Therapy, if they have that, if not Im gona go to UWS.
All my friends are off doing there own thing. AnnaRo is volenteering at camp, then going back to chicago. AnnaV is still here but is pretty busy with her friends at work. Kate is working full time and busy with....her new obsessions.
As for me, dating a phillipino boy named Alfie. Really awesome cute guy. Working at Beaners Central, and helping my mom with my sisters in the summer time.
I dont really know if anyone ever looks at xangas any more but my boyfriend was making one, and I was like, NO WAY, i used to have a xanga, so I thought I would update.
Leave me a comment and let me know how you are doing, specially if we have not talked for a while
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Chelsi